what's faith?

What's FAITH?
whose life am i going to see?....
for me to recognize the existence of
a Watcher? a Guide? a Director
of Life here on earth?

Experiences have SPOKEN..
and others' eyes laid on me...


WHAT WILL I DO NOW???

How shall I begin to face this cruelty?

Tomorrow have not yet come...
i still have a long day ahead of me...
is my life ever going to change?....
or will i live forever in this drama that's been killing my time?
Will i get to see changes and
reward my life for its sweetness?
The SUN is yet to SHINE....

I can still see the greenness of
the meadow....
TIME is still in my HANDS..
There's still HOPE...
I'm breathing...

I'm still ALIVE.....



(xxx)
enough said.

loneliness is eating me up!

i am lonely. that's why im sad...im lost..since no one guides me...i am glad to have my friends here...they fill up the emptiness i have within...but i can manage...yes. i can still get hold of myself. however, this sort of emotional breakdown is eating up my time since i spend a lot of moments thinking and reflecting back on my life...have i been sinful that im being punished this way??? have i been that disobedient to be forsaken like this??? i am willing to share my life with others and would love to become a part of theirs: do these make me a bad person??? hell no. i am human...it is natural for me to be with somebody. man is not destined to be alone as God have created Eve for Adam...


the question is....


where is thy Adam that thou God hath made for ME?!?



(xxx)
enough said.

sense me here...hear me loud and clear...

Brightness of the shadow

The ray of light tomorrow

Shines out all my fears

The weakness I reveal

Shared by all the moments

Timeless never ending

Conceived by all the pain

In this blur i remain

Don't you even dare
To look me in the eye

The emptiness I'm feeling

Would never seem to die

Come and sense the sorrow

Of deep and shallow smiles

As long as comes tomorrow

Arms raised, I'm holding tight

I have to go and leave you

And soon I'll fall apart

I'm falling into pieces

With my broken heart


I'll shake off all my sadness...

I have to go.......

(xxx)
enough said.

a bizarre fact on love

have u ever experienced giving something so valuable to someone yet that person afforded to lost it?

it's very disappointing right?it's hard to accept that u have given a lot of ur time and u have really exerted great effort just to be able to give it to that person yet it was taken for granted?

similar with love...

there are lots of human beings out there trying to express their deepest emotions to the persons they have feelings for...yet they are left unrecognized....
anonymous...

unknown..

but despite the hurt that they are undergoing through, they still manage to go on...
facing reality as it is...

for what these people have in their minds is that...

what they are giving were not being asked for by the one that they love...

they do it by choice....by their own will....

so blaming the person was never
an option...


even if it inflicts so much pain...
then so be it....



(xxx)
enough said.

trust

Truth is reality.
and it really does hurt.
why?
because those are the things that we fear to accept and face in our lives.
sometimes, truth can be confusing. especially when other's have betrayed you and destroyed your trust.
what tends to happen is that...
you always misinterpret what is true to be false...
you tend to be too doubtful about others..and you
become unsure of how you will handle situations you're in because of your past experiences with a similar matter....
was it your fault in the first place..why you tend to disbelieve others?
can others take it against you if you become too suspicious and cautious about trusting others since somebody have betrayed you big time??
it was never your choice to be doubtful on others anyway...it is so stressful actually....
yet you always have to treat others fairly..
everyone deserves a fair chance....



(xxx)
enough said.